Corrections
In the wake of 60 posts, and then some.
when i was a child, one of many lessons learned in CCD (“confraternity of christian doctrine” classes) was the examination of conscience. we were taught to reflect on our actions, thoughts, and words, and “proof” all using the ten commandments and the beatitudes as guides. this was something we did before “confession,” in which we asked for forgiveness for our “sins.”
later, in college, an ethics class discussion covered a hot new practice called “radical honesty.” the basis was considered a “moral imperative,” and it was mean to make relationships better by eliminating deceit and eventual distrust.
between the two, and… likely being an undiagnosed neurospicy, one of my perseverations is “accuracy.” i can replay a conversation or something i’ve written ad infinitum looking for inaccuracies, needing specificity. i think some of this also has to do with growing up in a home with a narcissist parent who left me feeling like i had to be an expert in testimony to survive.
so, either as things come to me, or if i happen to go back through what i’ve posted and find something that’s wrong, this is where i’ll make corrections.
the first correction.
in one of my posts, i remember lamenting having not seen a doctor in at least fours years. this isn’t true. i did see a doctor a bit more than two years ago. i went to have a specific concern addressed, and ended up being run through tests for cancer. (it was not cancer.) this episode was terrifying, both because… the thought of having to forego treatment due to caregiving, and the thought of dying before my parents… not having an “after-times”… was upsetting. i don’t know why i said it was four years when it’s been two. and, i didn’t consider trips to urgent care in my count. if i were to consider those, i’m sure i’ve been seen for other specific issues in the past four years.
the point is: i’ve not gone completely without care.
the second correct.
in one of my posts, i said that i’ve not gone more than 45 minutes away from home. this wasn’t true. i’ve gone upwards of an hour from home. and, my wife reminded me that in the past four years, we did go to the pine barrens in new jersey, and we took a day trip the hudson valley.
the point is: we’ve been tethered, but we made at least two exceptions.
for now, my conscience is clear.
thanks for humoring me the time it took to read this.